Hey family, how are you? We have had a whirl wind of a week with lots of video sessions with Sifu Phu working with our new training tool the Ultimate Training Companion, which I will have a discount link for 10% off for members by next week!
But other than filming and site planning, it’s also has been a week of remembrance for me filled with lots of prayer and crying out to The Most High. This week on 10/06/2016 marks the 11th year since my son Ayden went to be in the Heavens. A lot of people think I just have one child, though if you ever ask me I’d gladly let you know that I have two children; a Heaven and an Earth Angel! 🙂
I shared a bit about the experience on Facebook this year and every year around this time it is interesting to see what lessons and moments of rememberance will come forward. Some years have been much harder than others, but the past several years have been really beautiful moments in growth, forgiveness and honoring my son’s memory and what his short life has taught me.
This year was different, I felt I had taken 10 steps back, but wasn’t sure why as I have been going forward in my healing journey more and more each year. But when I couldn’t sleep the night of the 5th and felt compelled to pray and cry well into the early AM of the 6th, I realized there was a lot more going on than just that. And as the 6th and even today the 7th unfolded I realized just how much energy from various things I was picking up on.
No too long ago I learned why I am so sensitive to picking up the energies of people, places, things whether far or near in the past, present, etc. It was rather liberating when last year I discovered there is a name for this thing that has plagued me all my life, alienating me from the perceived norm and sometimes suffocating and stifling me because I didn’t know the who, what and why I could feel and see these things.
I’m an intuitive empath. What that means in short is I have the gift of discernment and can feel energy whether it is the universal collective, a person, a place, etc.
Since we have been busy I haven’t been online besides for Enter Shaolin much. What that means is I had no clue Haiti had been slammed hard by Hurricane Matthew and was on the way to all my loved ones family, friends and mentors in Florida. I did learn about Matthew heading towards Florida, when I spoke to my awesome cousin whom I was just united with in the past few months. But she acted like it wasn’t a big deal and since I lived in Florida for many years, I knew many times these storms end up not being that bad after all.
But at 11pm at night on the 5th, I couldn’t shake this feeling of needing to pray and cry out not just about my son, but also about the people in Haiti and the people in Florida. I prayed and cried for their protection, for them to be covered and to be passed over as He has done for me so many times. This went on until I felt I had nothing left and could do no more but to finally sleep at 1:30am.
Later on the 6th in the late afternoon, Sifu Larry and I decided to actually see what was going on with this Hurricane Matthew. They showed what happened to Haiti and they were projecting a category 4 hit to dead center to where the majority of my loved ones I spoke of are. I realized in that instant that was why I could not shake the feeling I needed to be in deep prayer the night before.
But it also helped me realize why my energy was all over the place and I was feeling so frazzled. Haiti was hit and in the mist of what to do and where to go and so many people I know and love where about to get slammed too. So it wasn’t that I was going backwards in my healing journey with my son being born stillborn, it was me feeling all the emotions going on in many places which just happened to set off all kinds of other internal alarms that also happened to be on the same dates and days of the week as when I went into labor and delivered him in 2006. The energies were on high to say the least.
I called my cousin in Ft. Lauderdale yesterday evening as the reports were looking grim and shared what happened and she said my prayers worked because they were just going to be missed and my other family that was suppose to be a direct hit was also sparred along with many friends. What a blessings, but the storm isn’t done yet so the prayers will keep coming!
But what was awesome (besides prayers being answered) was once I knew what was happening, I was able to release the pain of that energy and the chaos of it. Once upon a time it wouldn’t have been that easy to do that and just let it go, though I knew I needed to I wouldn’t know how to.
There are several things that have significantly helped me to be able to release the emotions and feelings I pick up on others, places, events, etc. and if you are sensitive to energies too and even if you are not these tool will help you to become more centered and whole. They will also help you to release pain and other baggage from your past.
Here is what has helped me in my healing journey listed in the order that I have found them:
1. Prayer & Meditation
2. Forgiveness of self and others
3. Eating whole foods
and very little processed foods
4. Exercising consistently (which can be weight lifting, yoga, C.O.R.E. training to dancing the night away)
5. EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) also called Tapping
6. Kung Fu as a whole, especially Qigong and Tai Chi
7. Yoga, which I find enhances my Kung Fu and vice versa.
8. Eating not just whole foods, but more raw foods than cooked and Vegan.
All of these things have helped me center myself, understand myself more and to carry less of the baggage of not just my past but also other people’s energy and stuff.
I still have work to do, just like in our Kung Fu… I am always improving, growing, making corrections and learning!
And this whole thing made me think of how we can get so caught up in thinking we are stuck on this one point in or training when in reality there is more going on behind the scenes than we initial thought.
But at least we can choose to release it. Now the next stage is to learn how to release energy that does not serve the greatest good, regardless if I know the origin or not. I figure it’s just a matter of making the decision to release it, but much like Ngo Dac Na while it may appear simple, that might take a bit more time than I think to figure it out and that’s okay too. 😉
It’s once you are aware of things, that you now have the power to go and do something about them. It might not happen overnight, but the more you keep seeking solutions and keep going back at your training, you are going to get it eventually, it will happen!
When you are practicing and you are getting stuck on a movement or can’t seem to grasp a whole form, it’s okay! There is likely more than one reason why this is happening. If we can find these reasons out, we can learn from them and grow from them which will then help us in getting the movement and form sooner. But until you find that reason, do not allow negativity or sadness to conquer you. Step back, meditate on it, if you are the praying type get on that too and then work on those things you need to do first to then get the movement or form.
You can persevere through anything with the right amount of gumption and tenacity.
Utilize all your resources so you can be more centered in each moment, find the things that bring more joy, light, health and happiness in your life. Because these are the things that will get you through the seemingly hard times, through the trials and the tribulations.
You are already amazing and are meant for nothing but greatness. We all have stuff to work on in this life and in this Kung Fu journey. Just remember to keep moving forward and to keep doing more of those things that keep you happy and healthy, because the more centered you are the easier the challenges become.
You are all always in my prayers and we at Enter Shaolin look forward to helping you be even more amazing than you already are. 🙂
I’d love to hear what helps you through times of trials in tribulations whether related to your training or not, if it’s more private shoot me an email, if you are the sharing type share in the comments section below this post. In all cases, we look forward to hearing from you!
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